Hello everyone, today I wanted to get a bit more personal on my blog and shared some of the things that have been going on in my life lately.
Is memorial day weekend which means summer is here yay. summer is my favorite season. I love everything about it, going to central park and enjoying the beauty of all the greenery we have around us. In the summer the days are longer. Everyone just want to have a good time, people seem happier. Everyone is outside enjoying the weather. living in nyc we don’t usually have backyards ( if you do consider yourself lucky) so everyone loves to chill outside on the block. In the summer the layers of clothes come off and summer fashion takes over. beautiful flowy dresses, denim shorts, cute tops, and you can actually wear cute sandals. l love summer because my birthday is during the summer also. This summer I have a feeling is going to be great I really do plan to enjoy it. As for me getting personal a lot has change in my life and well change is scary but it was change that needed to happen. I was working a 9-5 job that I hated it and made me literally sick to go to the place where my health started to take a toll. At first I thought I was being weak but after putting up with this job for a year I finally reached my breaking point and quit. I started getting depressed and anxiety took over oh boy. My weight even suffer. When I started the job I was in the best shape of my life. As time when on stress started getting to me I notice I didn’t have the motivation or the will to push myself to go to the gym. My eating habits took a turn for the worst and all of this because I was so stressed out and so unhappy with my work life. Which brings me to the famous Steve Jobs quote “the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet keep looking don’t settle.” I was doing great work but I hated it. I dislike the company value and even my co workers it was hell. This quote made me realize something hey im still young this is not the end. After months of planning I saved up and I quit. It was the best decision I made in my life to trust myself and know that I deserve more and I will find it. After I quit my job I was happy but the feeling of the unknown took over and boy did it scare me, it paralyzed me to the point where I wasnt even being productive. I didn’t have the energy to look for a job and didn’t really have the confidence to go to job interviews. But is time now its been 2 months of sitting home and having major freak out about my future I finally have the will to go and get hired. I don’t really know the point of this blog I just wanted to share that. Sometimes when we are not happy with our life it is up to us to make the change and as scary at that is, it must be done. This is going to sound a bit odd but I consider myself a bit odd it’s like for once in my life I am following the tiny voice in my heart. My intuition was screaming quit but I was in denial you know because well I need money to survive. Now that I started listening to it the more I learn to relax and just go with the flow of life. ( I mean I have my freak outs at times im only human)